About Me
TINA Estrella
My JOURNEY
It’s somewhat early in the new millennium, I just had my second nervous system meltdown that week and once more proved to myself that my drug and alcohol consumption are waaaay out of control.
I’m cowering on the floor of my bathroom, my eyes swollen from the hangover and the hysterical crying, my body sore from processing the toxins and my flesh burning on the self inflicted, stitched up wounds.
Suddenly, a thought as electric as a lightning bolt on a hot summer afternoon thunderstorm shoots through my head:
”This is not what I came here for, this can’t be the PURPOSE of my life!”
The clarity of that KNOWING blows my mind.
All the brain fog, the inner melodrama of “poor little me”, the self loathing and hatred for the world – it’s all gone, there’s only this deep UNDERSTANDING that I have been doing this to myself so I didn’t have to face the harsh but oh! so sobering truth:
I’m the ONLY ONE responsible for how I feel.
Only I can change this SHIT SHOW I call my life.
Boom, there it is.
No drama. No doubt. Just complete SURRENDER to the naked facts.
If you ask me how I got there, I can only say this:
There comes the moment, when GOD/THE UNIVERSE/CREATION CONSCIOUSNESS (or however you want to call it) gets tired of playing the same old game of “I’m such a victim to circumstances” through us humans and kicks open the door to “I’M THE CREATOR OF MY OWN REALITY”.
That’s the blue pill/red pill moment.
The choice is ours, whether we walk through that door or CHOOSE to remain in our familiar, kind of comfortable hell rather then stepping into the unfamiliar and therefore at the beginning still cringy, unknown territory.
I chose to take that leap.
Since then, I’ve invested probably around 45K and endless hours in therapy, coaching, spiritual practices and trainings. Some worked wonders, others not so much.
I made friends with my darkness and my light, integrated parts of me that had been screaming for my attention for almost half a century.
This is an ever evolving, ongoing process. We will most likely be doing this work until the end of our lives, always expanding and growing into more fulfilled, more loving, more grateful versions of ourselves.
This path is not for the faint or the lover of SPIRITUAL FLUFF. It’s the path of the sacred warrior, the HERO*INE’S journey.
It entails facing our challenges not only in the material, but also in the mental , the emotional and the metaphysical realm.
It demands all our devotion and determination to look into the places our ego would rather have us put our Ray-Bans on.
AND it has been the most SATISFYING, fulfilling experience of my life!
All the things we desire, the loving connection, the belonging, the abundance, the sense of safety and the playfulness – they all emerge as a result from doing this deep work of excavating our previously unconscious patterns and shift them into more conscious, aligned choices.
And if you’re somewhat like me, you KNOW from experience that this undertaking sounds simple and easy, yet we meet roadblock after roadblock, wondering if we will ever make it.
That’s what I’m here for:
I will be your coach and your cheerleader along the way.
I’ll hold space for you, share tools and techniques with you that I have adopted as my own Top 10 in the self development charts and support you in following through with whatever you have set as vision and intention for yourself.
Because you, too, are a BADASS and a hero*ine, and it’s an HONOUR to assist you on your very own and UNIQUE warrior’s path.
My TRAININGS:
2017 – 2018
Hangab practicioner/energetic bodyworker
2019 – 2020
Mastertraining Tantra Hatha Yoga
2022 – 2023
Massage + Ayurveda therapist/herbalist
2024 – 2025
EK coach/Inner Family System + somatic coaching
